I keep having dreams of me cutting myself deeply, it makes me scared to fall asleep so I’m starting to force myself to take sleeping pills so I have energy for daily workouts or just normal activities
and I also keep getting reminded that my parents and siblings probably don’t love me
Because all the times they actually “cared” is when they saw my sh cuts or over heard me calling suicide help lines/hot lines
I’m so sick and tired of being blocked by my bestest friends and being ignored for hours.
I just want to end it but I’m too young.
And my hypersexuality just loves to make me hate myself more
I keep getting disgusted and uncomfortable with my own body and actions including thoughts
it’s all tiring all and all it’s just a same cycle
And also what’s the point of living when I’m being controlled with barely any free will?
All I do is wake up, eat breakfast, go to school, have lunch, go to my math class, go to my art class, go to my gym class, go home, sleep, what’s the point?
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